So long ago pictures.

Ain't she cute? Lol.
My cousin la. LoL



Avilion Emerald Cove.
The Club place.


I thought of Han Chung when i saw this. LOL




Nice kan? lol


Shu em Hong. =X


Port Dickson.
Things i did there. LoL


Hmmm.. Lols




ooohhh. Lol



Ohh lalala


Jelly fishi... LOL

Singapore.
Wow. LOL
*since march. -___-*

Peace out.=)

Hmm. I can just tell you. I love my self.
I did a wonderful thing today.
But i feel worthless cause it's never returned.
=____=

Annnyway.
I feel bored. seriously. -_-
freakkk. lmao.

Lalalaa...
Random.

I love my pictures. =)


It means,
The awaiting of your phone call
Wherever i am,
whatever i'm doing..

=P
i made that up
HAHAHA =_=
I'm amazing aren't i? =X

Midlife? Why not lifeless?

Why the fuck is my blog url n name Midlife and not lifeless?

Hold on why the fuck SHOULD it be lifeless?

Here's why.

I don't do anything but go to school and martin.
I attempt to go out with friends,
but most of em, LIKE CHIAHUI BABI BODOH SIAL ... is always bitching around.
Say we're going out on saturday.
Friday she'll say let's go.
sat morning she'll say i don't want to go.
=)

So, Yeah,
Motherfuck you chiahui. =)

Oh what else.
i attempt to go out with other circles, well guess what no one else likes me so i'm stuck alone.
oh what else.
Your house is your home
my house is my hell.
I'm related to that bastard?
Are you fucking kidding me?
Okay fine just a percent of it is hell.

I thought i found a place to call home.
school. =)
with friends. lots of em.
But if i count properly.
I can fit them all in a pair of hands.
D=

I thought i found my angel. but turns out i'm wrong
i thought i found happyness, No it's only temporary
i thought i felt forgiveness, but i'm not sure what i'm seeing
i thought i was strong, now i know it's just plain ol bull shit.
=)

Say goodbye to eric . The cheerful one. =) and say hello to the lifeless. one. =)

twitter?

If i had twitter. The lastest post would say

It's 2.50 am. and i'm fucking still awake. I need some sleep!


Well i got some. 315 till 5.30.
and i went throught the day awake.
leaving me sleepy in Biology class.
-_____________-
fuck weih. -_-

Ahhhh
i feel like a retarded asshole

wait a minute. i AM one. -_-

Tag. by Muna, Steph, Kah ee

I'm so bored.
So here goes.


1. What have you been doing recently?
Hiking. Badminton. Things i never friggin DID. -__-


2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
Nope. Unless if the batt run out. lol


3. What happened at 10am today?
Hiking. Halfway. =)


4. When did you last cry?
Urm. Don't remember. LOL


5. Believe in Fate/Destiny?
Sometimes.

6. What do you want in life now?
I have all i need. For now. ;D

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
If i have a hood. I would. LOL

8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed ?
Sleep? what else?

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
No idea what you call em. LOL

10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?
I don't know. Nice msges are in 'Saved Messages'. =)

11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I'll tell you when i have one. LOL -__-

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
No? -_-

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Monster Vs. Alien. LOL. Nice movie. =D

14. What are you proud of?
I'm better in studies than my brother. yes my brother ONLY. .
LOL. =X

15 . What does the oldest text msg in your inbox says and who is it from?
May 10th. =_=
Fuck. You don't have?
LOL..
Note; She's refering to the Komsas Revision book. LOL. =_=

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
If a song could get me you - Marit Larsen. =D

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Yes. =) LOL -_-

18. What does the newest text msg says and who is it from?
Haha. Waiting for u
-Kah ee-
TO ONLINE. -_-

19. What time did you go to sleep last night?
10.45 PM. =)

20. Are you currently happy?
Erm. I'm nuetral now. LOL

21. Who gives you the best advice?
Define ' Advice'. lol

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Nope. Don't intend to. -_-

23. Who do you talked to on phone last night?
evidently, No one. -_-

24. Is something bugging you right now?
Yeah.

25. Who is the last person to make you laugh?
Cracked. =3

26. Do you like yourself?
NOpe. I love myself. =D

27. You want $5 or $10?
How About £1000000.?
=X

28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
no i don't think, Cause i actually AM. >< >

29. Who is your best best best friend?
Pick for me would you? LOL

30. What will you do if you like that boy/girl?
Erm. I never did liked any of my best friends before. -_-

31. Who are your favourite stars?
None favourite.

32. You hate your mother sometimes in some ways?
4 words.
I. Love. My. Mum.

33. Do you had even stead before?
What the fuck is that? -____-

34. What type of girl/boy do you like?
Nothing in particular.

35. Now are you single/attached?
Wei where's my other half!? lol. -_______-

Pass this tag to 10 people !

1. Muna (give you back. =X)
2. Steph ( give you back. =D)
3. Kah ee. ( =_= give you back. -_-)
4. Philip ( Like he'll do it.) Edit, He did it already actuaaly LOL. -_____- /edit
5. Chun Wai. ( miracle he'll do it.)
6. Joshua ( another miracle waiting to happen)
7. Chia Hui ( i think she did it ady')
8. Elodie ( she's been tag before.)
9. Alicia ( did this dy)
10. Sharon ( Dead Blogger. Impossible will do this tag. -_-)

1. Would you date number 5?
Chun Wai. O_O. Lol

2. Number 2 just got in a car crash.
Steph. -___-. *cries for an hour* *go hospital find*
(fuck this question -_-)

3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend.
Alicia. So? -_-

4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
Philip, *pretend he's my brother and smack his balls off. =X

5. Number 1 is acting weird.
Muna; Well. I won't force you to tell. Imma EXTORT YOU. *sinister laugh*
-___________-

6. Numbers 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
Kah ee, Elodie. Sharon. erm. i don't think i'll happen? one so far away. LOL -_-

7. Number 7 just got tickets for him/her and ask you to go to a concert.
Chiahui. Woah miracle. LOL -_-

8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
Sharon ; INNOCENT GIRL ASK ME TO BAR? lol. =X
* not so innocent after all. LOL =XXX *

9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
Philip ; Byee.. *waves middle finger* don't come back. =D =X
LOL =_= Sry philip.lOL

10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
Elodie. Hoi she in New Zealand. I'm in Malaysia. Different jurisdiction. We jsut switch places. =X
HAHAHA =X

11. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
Chun Wai. As long as i don't need to pay a single cent. I'm game for TGI =X

12. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.
Alicia. LRT got la. Bus? no le. LOL

13. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night because he/she can't sleep.
Joshua; I think he'll call kah ee first. LOL

14. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
Joshua; What's your problem? LOL

15. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seems their boy/girlfriend has dumped them.
Muna; EUNICE. LET'S TURN CANNIBAL AND EAT THE BASTARD! =D
the sentence is wrong. And if that happens i'm so full i wouldn't need to eat for a decade. =XXX

16. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal.
Steph . Erm Okay. I'm game for any meal of the day. Breakfast. Lunch. Tea. Dinner. Supper. Late supper. =X

17. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
Philip. me: what the fuck are you giving me a koala?
Philip, starts to say something
me ; Shut up. *takes koala. * * Slams door.* =)
( i copied someone. LOL -__________-)

18. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.Lol.
Phil. I'm not good at games u gimmi for what? -__-

19. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!
Alicia; Let's play Uno. =D

20. Number 1 thinks he/she's overweight.
Muna. I hear you say that everyday. -__-

21. Number 7 looks lonely!
Chiahui. Serve her right. HAHAHHAHA =X

22. Number 2 asks you rudely to go leave her/him alone.
Steph ; *shuts up* *leaves*
(she's sscary when she's pissed. DOn't play play. -________-)

23. Numbers 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
Chun wai, Kah ee . Aww. THanks guys. LOL.

24. Number 6 decide to dye their hair black.
Joshua. Isn't his hair black already?

25. You catch number 9 by him/herself, crying.
Alicia. WHY WHY WHY WHY. Here i have a shoulder. =D
=XX

26. Numbers 1 , 3 , 5, and 6 all tackle you at once!
Muna, Kah ee, Chunwai, Joshua.
2 boys and 2 girls. Wow. -___-
*runs*





LOL. -__-

The Day

The Day
It's Here
It's Gone
Now, It's awaiting the punishments from parents.
Chiahui's mum said to her, ' you wait kena marah '
*wow cipalang english*

Right now,
i'mjust listening to music, bored out of my lifeless life,
wait.
since it's lifeless, i don't think i have a life.
scratch that.

I'm just doing nothing but listening to music. Sad ones.
Random Person *screams out*: WHYY?
Why random, Thank you for asking. I'm just merely pissed off.
How?
Because i was borned into this world living with my brother.
=)

Here Let me show you what happened.
or rather, read.

PHILIP : Go buy McD.
I Gave him the speechless face.
PHILIP : I drive u there, you go n buy.
Me : what ever. Go now la.
PHILIP : you go now you wait until you sohai like that
Me : whatever la go la.
*waits for the bastard, who at that time just kicked me off the computer and went online*

somehow while waiting i was just miserably tired. I was already lieing on the floor. so, isn't it obvious i fell asleep?
An hour later, he woke me up with his leg. yes. LEG.
So obviously when you're tired and dreaming , and someone wakes you up with his leg. you'll flick it off and go back to sleep kan?

That's what i did. And when i really woke up. He wasn't at home no more. Where is he? He drove the car to McD, Bought his OWN lunch. I called him he didn't pick up and he called back. and u know what he said?

Me : Where u?
PHILIP : McD. Buying for myself. Just now ask u come you don't want.

I hung up.
And everyday, He'll call me 'Selfish'
Look who's talking. The Selfish bastard himself.

Imagine me everyday like this. You think i say 'Fuck' so much for fun? If i can i would just not say it. Seriously though? I feel great not eating lunch. I don't give a fuck anyway. =)


Oh look. He just walked in, Poke me, and said

" Ji Ga Na Loi Soi'
It means
YOu BROUGHT THIS ON YOU

What the fuck?
So it's my fault i have a bastard-low-life-idiotic-shit-eating-ass-wiping-two-face-bastard-fuckface-brainless-stupid-dumb-bitch brother?
MY FAULT?

Hello World. 1

Hello World. 1.
i'm bored
It's Nervewrecking. tomorrow.
The day of doom.
the day everyone get's Screwed by parents at home.
Well, Not manoj. He get's A1 for practically all the subjects i guess he wont get scolding.
BUT.
TatWyng Got better scores this time around the year.
HAH!
I wonder is manoj crying now.
he did last year when Elena Beat him in english.
LOL
*laugh my arse off*

By The Way, When i say 'It's Nervewrecking, Tomorrow,.'
it's a lie.
i don't feel a thing. cause i know my mum will just lecture me.
but i do know from then on, she'll start babling me about studying instead of doing nothing online, which is what i'm doing now. so technically i'm screwed too. Just not nervous. Hahaha!
=X

Today Was not a buzz. I'm hoping no one reads my blog cause the only reason i'm writting like this is because i can't stop typing in 'LOL, BTW, no1. d, tis, coz', ' Which is disastrous, a catasthrophy.

i wonder if i spelt that right. LOL

Oh there it goes again. Great. Wonderful. Briliant. Amazing. Excellent. Stop. Me.
*brakesssss!*
okay

By now you should know i'm trying to imply lame jokes, which i might add, i'm failing miserably. So, come up to me and ask me how i'm doing. I'll just tell you I'm miserable. =D

you know, i actually FAILED my morale paper??
Well if you didn't, you do now. =)
I have a feeling the teacher that marked my paper is crazy. A question that is based on your opinion, but the answer must be based on the marking scheme, So let me ask you this. Are we robots that can follow exatcly the marking scheme?

Well aparently, some can. I guess they are. No offence guys, but i'm saying this out of severe depression. No, seriously. I knew from the begining my answers were crap, that i wouldn't score for that paper. THAT particular paper. But who on this darn earth could possibly knew that i failed the paper. That paper is miserable. i once stated that History was a miserable paper i had, But now i know, this exam, my 'Pendidikan Moral' Is actualy far far FAR more miserable than any paper i had.

i heard this Form 3 students walking down the stairs behind us, well , MONTHS back. I don't remember which. And i heard them talking, saying, -Moral it's a killer, you have to memorise those definisi-ies.-
When i heard him, all thats in my head was,
" Hey you dimwitted kid, You should be thankful you're still in Form 3. At least you GET OBJECTIVE QUESTION IN THE PAPER. "
It's true what HuiYee said last year. * sorry if i spelt your name wrong*
She said ' Honestly, next year you guys would be begging to go back to form 3. I know i am.'
Yes. indeed i'm begging to go back to form 3. It was so much less tiring.
Now, i'm sitting next to the window, and sometimes i wonder why isit so hot. Oh it's cause of the blazing heat from the sun.
Screw Global warming.
I can't even imagine how are those who's lives are in the desert area. I feel sorry for them to endure the physical torture everyday.

Now i believe i've written something long enough to confuse people i shall rant

I believe my mum is sending my brother to pick up my results, and me as well. But he indirectly said 'No' momentarily. Which was good. I think. So now i wonder is mum gonna come. I want to go to Pavilion. Eunice was suppose to ask them. But she didn't. So Screw her. I'm gonna go home and online my ass off.

I wanna say this But i know people will end up asking 'Who who who?' Well all i can say is this much but now it's too late to apologize i'm just screwing myself thinking of you. I wanna watch 17 again.
i wanna watch Terminator.
i wanna watch. well alot of movies. but it's foolish to go watch alone. But if i wanna go with people, i just don't know who to ask. cause i just like a movie, and i'll go wherever they go. i got no other comment. But if you're gonna ask me go watch a movie with you, and when the movie ends, not FIVE seconds later you say 'Bye Bye'. So why don't i watch it alone? Why did i waste my time waiting for you guys?

I just want to have a decent balance with school and movies. but , just nobody wants to watch it with me. i'm somehow hated. i wanna ask you but it's a waste of time. cause i know you'll go ' NO' before any other words comes out.
I wanna watch transformers. But i know. Once the movie come out.
SOMEBODY will go watch with ANOTHER. SomeBody. -_-.
That leaves me with the 'Martin Gang'

Well exculding you, you low-life good for nothing dog poop eating brat, most of them just likes to stick with you. and someothers just flys off watching on their own, without letting me in on it. So who the fuck am i going to watch with? and look this is the first, FIRST F_*_*_K this WHOLE post.

I'm not bragging i'm just complaining. so live with it . I love you guys and all but i just feel left out sometimes. so ignore

Oh so now i'm bored. i have nothing to do. Take care. Lovelies. Tata

No badwards phost.(Randompost)

Fly away.
no more bad wards.

I lost my Accounts notes. Half of it lol.
I need to photostat it now.
=_=
damn

My Right hand is killing me.
why?
i blame the tennis game.
It hurts.

Twisted Whiskers.
-__-
don't watch it. LOL

I love apple juice
i dislike eating apple

i dislike oranges
but i eat them cause they taste sweet and sour. =)

I want to die
cause my leg is gonna break
and my hand is cracking
i'm losing my limbs
carry me, =)

My mum wnats my brother to go take my results on friday.
=-=
fuck so everyone will see him
=_=
oh. I broke the chain.
HAHAHAHA
=_______________________=

i want to eat more 'sui gao's
they are so fucking delicious.
WHAT? it's food. i GET to use fuck. =X

3 days of ridiculous ness

I went to fucking PD.
PoRT DICKSON.
=_=
not anything else.

What did i do there?

Let me tell you what i did. All i did there was eat, Swim, Get poked by foreign object in the sea, eat sleep eat drink and... go home. =_=
I'm serious.
two days in PD. okay not even 24 hours in PD. i manage to do so many things.
=_=

So after that i balik rumah. i slacked.
got bored of my life and tried to end it.
*slits throat*

I'm in the hospital blogging now. can't talk. nor eat.

-----------------
wait wait.
i didn't do that.
i went to school on monday and yesterday.
and i feel happy cause it's school.
an reason not to feel lifeless.

okay i feel asleep at 9PM last night. -_-.
So i couldn't online.
and i couldn't even if i were awake.

today, miraclly i can,
but you're not. -_-
bored outta my sick mind now.

I got fucking 43 for fucking pendidikan moral. damn fuck the first person who mark it.
=_= damn shit la wei. =_= seriously?
fuck fukc fuck i got emo nearly killed someone.

My results are better. well some at least. but not perfect. nor isit good.
Maths was good. but my add maths improved . a friggin loads.
BM, my usual marks. 60-70.
sejarah. i guess i added a mark but it seems the outing mark is still the same.
Chemistry. i got 82. i don't know how tthe mark is counted.
Biology. A fucking 69.

Sigh. imma fucking die. =_=

Look into your eyes.

there's nothing to hide.

i tried to reach out for you,

just to be with you
my heart is breaking
don't go away
baby don't you know i miss you so

Don't Go Away - By2

Short Term Memory Loss

5 Minutes ago,
before i hit 'sign in'
i had a truckload of fuck to sprout
but once i click the button
my brain got drained
i lost all senses
and i don't know what i want to do
nor write no more.

I just can't feel my senses
and i'm fucking hungry
yet i'm too lazy to get up from this place
knowing once i do
my online privilages will be sent to hell
cause the bastard at home wants to use. =_=

I say my goodbyes
i shall make my way
to the other world
where my faith will decide
my doings will decide
wheter i get a halo
or a pitchfork

i shall make my way.
to eat my lunch
cause i'm listening to
No Boundries.
=D
Kris Allen Version.
Adam's version is... i think i listened ady.
yes i got both versions in my playlist.
LOL

Monsters Vs. Alien

Ahh. i woke up at 8am. To go tuition.

Yes. The title is about at movie.

but i'm talking about tuition. so, you tell me. Am i lifeless, or am i lifeless. Sigh. I didn't wake up at 8. I lied. I woke up at 7.50, Ran out, Charged my phone. and ran back to sleep. and woke up at 9.00,. My day plan was severly coruptted because i woke up late.





never mind that.

Add maths extra class. What else hmm?

I spent 31 Bucks today. HOW?



Because of the friggin title la. What else?



Went to TS after tuition, and watched MONSTERS vs ALIEN.

Overrall the movie ain't bad.

Funny. I'de give it a 8.9 / 10.



yes. Eight. POint. NINE.

Live with it. LoL.

popcorn with a drink. anddd fion finish HALF of the regular popcorn.

and the weird kahchun couldn't finish his he gave me some. and that made me get an extra half of popcorn. This regular popcorn. i ate so litle only. 1/4 of it was ate by lavin, Chiahui. Then Fion ate most of it, leaving me with HALF OF 1/4. =_=
But kc game me some and i ate 1/4 of my popcorn.
i'm never going out with fion again. LOL

After bowling, Ate Subway.
Super boring here right?
i wrote a bucketload of crap. But just now cannot auto save. and cannot plubishl Everything flew away. Fuck. So.
That's it
Bye

Birthday. 09-06-09

Happy Birthday to .=D

My Motherrr
Haahahaha.
Okay fine it was yesterday.
Had dinner out last night.
Rendevous Steak Garden.
Near Kg.Pandan Roundabout.

Dinner Was so full i nearly died. =___=
That's all that happened.
i know.
you guys are thinking.
'Where are the cakes?'
'Where is the singing?'

we don't do that stuff.
On special occasions.
the biggest thing that could happen is a .. holiday.
LOL..
other than that it's just..
Heavy Dinner.

Yeap. I have a very average family.
lol

Next post. is about Today. =D

I'm Lifeless

Well,
i Didn't go to Martin at 10 yesterday.
I woke up at 10.30.
no point going already right?
What did i do at home?
Online. What else is there to do? =_=

Okay
I'm LIFELESS

Note the word ; Lifeless.
and ON that word. Not the word. LESS. .

*cries in a corner*
People have fun during school holidays.
ie. Go jalan-jalan.
Me?
I Go to tuition.
FOUR DAYS A WEEK

And i'm still doing that Next week.
Why?
Cause No one outside my Martin circle can go out with me


Reasons


ONe; When i'm frree, One of them is Tuition-ing. Causing. NO outing.
Two. When I'm Free. and trying to go out with different circles. =____=
Highly Unlikely. One of em going Perth. =_=
Three When i'm free. One of em NOT free.
Wtf?

Dah. I give up.
i'm gonna admit my lifeless-ness.

On the scale of One to Ten, My Lifeless level is?


I'll tell you.
It's

15.
OFF THE SCALE!.
HAHAHA
No it isn't Funny. If you're laughing now. Fuck you. =_=

Ala why is everyone offline.
DD=

Fuck

What the fuck am i going to do for three hours
At PUDU

...

ALONE

TMR?>

Fuck =-________=